For some reason Tuesdays and I have this odd relationship.. It's a bit of a love/hate relationship.. Usually Tuesdays aren't overall a bad day.. but for some reason they always seem to end up starting out more like a Monday.. I'm a stay at home mom, so it's not like I have to "go to work" on a Monday, but for me Monday's are the beginning of the week madness of remembering everything I am supposed to do for the week, where the homework was/went/goes, do you have your snacks, did you brush your teeth, when was that last bath you had, all around 6 am, if the kids didn't decide that 5:48 was a better time to get up. 12 minutes makes a huge difference in my mood when it comes to sleep, but as I was saying, my Mondays and Tuesdays, are usually insane when it comes to the kids morning schedules and routines. For that reason I NEVER eat breakfast when they are. So that is something I've tried the last few days. To eat breakfast while they are getting ready, therefore, if I end up at the grocery store after bringing them to school, well I'm not starving and buying the "wrong" foods because they are on sale and look delicious or waiting until almost 11 AM and I'm so hungry I eat a ton of nothing.
I was exhausted this morning, probably because I am always exhausted, but, more because I slept like crap, the monster ended up on the couch and all the children were up around 5:48.. and then asking me for breakfast, and whining in my ears.. I was not happy. My mood started off HORRIBLE today, but I'm trying really hard to not yell at the kids in the mornings, or in general, and talk to them like normal people, as adults we don't like to be yelled at so I am sure they don't like to be yelled at either..
We got out the door on time for school and then I got a medium iced coffee with cream 1 sugar. I'm so used to my large turbo boost coffees that these just seem so tiny. But I'm trying replace the other half of that coffee I would be drinking with water. I did get my 16 oz of water in for the day. It almost was a struggle though..
When I got home from dropping all the monsters off I did some laundry, and some light cleaning..all while on the phone with my mom. and then I sat down to check my email.. and didn't get up til around 2 hours later.. I decided I was going to get the kids teachers flowers for teacher appreciation day, my mood was just bummy today, I thought maybe if I did something nice for other people than maybe my mood would improve. I came back. and I caved and let the kids sit and watch TV/play video games- (the monster still wasn't feeling overly better from being sick) - I told myself only an hour of "them" time.. and then we would get outside... 2 more hours and after an email from my sister saying she would meet me to go to the track, I finally got motivation, found my sneakers and got the kids outside for a few minutes before she showed up. We FINALLY get the kids in the car to head up to the track, scooters, a game of whether or not my oldest would stay home and do his homework or come... We do a lap, feels good, the kids are a bit obnoxious but they aren't slowing our pace too much. We get thru the lap and my monster decided she needed her scooter but she was not going to use it unless I pulled her. I couldn't walk and pull her. We sat there for a good 15 minutes (15 minutes of which I could have been using for me time) arguing with a tired 3 almost 4 year old... When finally her brother said she could use his scooter, and all was well in the world. We finally got to do another few laps... but by then we were tired, hot, and cranky, and daddy had called to see if we were going to meet him at Moe's for dinner. I already had this notion in my head that we were going to go there for dinner anyways, so I checked the website for nutrition information... I stressed looking for things that I would enjoy at Moe's.. only because I had already eaten a fair amount of calories for the day-- all healthy items but not enough to make me feel like I could justify it. I was dealing with a tired 4 yr. old, a tired momma and didn't want to cook though. So we got home, found out the 99 kids could eat free because the Red Sox won yesterday. Thank you Boston..
We go and I can't decide what I want.. and they immediately put the popcorn down. I start munching like I normally would, and started to feel a little guilty. I order water with Lemon and try to decide if I want to risk calories on a mixed beverage, because after all the day I had was kind of annoying... nope, Ooh Mango Iced Tea, that works.. I find an amazing salad with black beans and chicken and corn and a spicy sauce.. and its only 570 calories.. and then the oldest tells the waitress its my daughters birthday.. (in a few days).. She gets a free dessert... and I know im going to want some... thankfully not much comes between cake and an almost 4 yr. old... except she didn't feel well and felt like sharing.. so I ate some.. but not all of it.. I felt good with my choices at the restaurant, and for the day, I didn't get to many laps in at the track, but I still got them in..
We get home, kids are finally asleep and I'm sitting down to write this.. and I'm starting to get hungry again... this time of night is the worst for me.. because I'm finally zoning back into relax mode (even though I haven't done much for today) and I'm in pain from the day. I'm debating looking at my calories, should I have something else or will the cravings go away..
Choices are hard to change.. When your used to something and your given a choice between this and that.. sometimes its easier to choose this over that.. Not every day is going to be as easy as todays choices but I'm happy with the ones I did make. As for temper tantrums, I wanted to throw a few myself and I don't blame her for being tired and crabby, especially for not feeling well.. but as for time management... I really should decide if its easier without the kids to actually get more than 3 laps in at the track that it might be a lot easier to do in the morning while they are at school.. but.. do I grocery shop, run errands and clean during that time too. and then when I get home with them how do I fit it all in. As a mom, I know it isn't easy and that I really need to find "ME" time that works. Its all about trial and error, and I'm hoping that I will find something that works sooner than later.. but slow and steady still. but then again.. it's only day 2.
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